When the sun shines

I feel better on days when the sun is out. It's gloomy today. No rain but no sun either. I am thinking it's going to be a drinking day. I haven't drank really in a few weeks. I've felt better but not like i was quitting something, just not doing it. I haven't heard from her in awhile and we have stopped playing games it seems. I guess it's safe to say I was completely wrong about her views towards me in general. It happens I am often wrong. More wronger than righter probably, though that's hard for anyone to get me to admit. I am good at arguing when I get the urge or desire to do so. So it's not often that I will concede to someone elses view or point. Even now I am not conceding to anyone other than my own head. I can admit to myself that I am wrong a lot easier than I will admit to someone else that I am. Oh well fuck it. It doesn't matter. I am good at being a dick after I get to know someone so that is probably exactly what happened in this case. I know it is at least on a couple of occasions. But I am also good at backing off, which I think I have done pretty good in this situation as well. I would assume that if she wanted to talk to me at all she would message me or start a game. She hasn't so I haven't. Anyway, I am just babbling, trying to fill this screen with words and make this at least something worth posting. In any case it won't be, but still more is better than less, and since my main goal is to waste peoples time with this, if anyone reads it my goal will be accomplished. Soon I will have things truly worthy of sharing, till those words come, reading this will be hit and miss and more than likely miss. Further attempts to waste your time to come. Bye for now. Got minutes.