Okay

I lied, I'm going to keep doing it because I like talking to you and anyone else who may happen to read this. If this is the only place I can speak to you the way I want then I will continue to use it as my outlet. I wish I wouldn't have fucked shit up so bad between us. I wish I could say I don't know what happened, but I know what I did. I pushed you too much, it's like you told me the one time, why can't I just be happy with the way things are, and I thought I had eased back a little, but apparently the damage was already to severe and done, since it hasn't been the same since then. Anyway sailing is canceled for this weekend and you are gone again. You don't appear to be speaking to me at all anymore. At least you aren't responding to my messages and you didn't speak to me at all the last time I saw you. Oh well. I'm sorry for whatever. I hope you have a good trip and I hope maybe sometime you'll enjoy my company again. Further attempts to.... Bye for now. Got plane plans.