extra days

No such thing as extra time. I wonder who people are around me that really care about my presence. Sometimes I think not many. When I don't see people I wonder what they are up to or what they are doing. If I can get in touch with them or leave them a message I do that. It's just nice to let people know their existence matters to you I think. Or that their absence is noticed. I wonder why more people don't feel this way about people. I said to someone before I wish someone loved me the way I loved you. Then I saw a familiar type of love and realized that if you don't want the love that a certain person wants to give you it's just like an unwanted job or something similar to that feeling. Just a constant annoyance that you have to deal with. I notice myself doing this to someone and I try I really do try and not be annoying. Still, I desire friendship or the same sort of situation it was before I mentioned the word love and you and I in the same sentence to them. I realize a reluctance to participate in this type of thing. Will my participation seem like a want for that love to continue or something like that. Yes it could be perceived that way. As much as I can say it wouldn't I don't know for sure. I. Further attempts to.... Bye for now. Got love.